It’s been over a year
One year earlier…
“Hello my name is Alexia and I returned home early from an LDS mission. Things seem dark and hopeless. I don’t see myself going anywhere else in life.”
Now…
“Hi I’m Lexi and I returned home early from an LDS mission. I’m on a roller coaster that can only go up. Happiness is achieved when it becomes a desire.”
This post is for the people on The Early Returned Missionary Initiative page on Facebook. Especially for those that are in the early stages of recovery.
There’s really only one thing I can say. There’s only one thing you need to understand and accept. A principle that was my saving grace.
I T ‘ S G O N N A T A K E T I M E
Based on myself and others I have come to know and observe I know this… Time is what heals. The thing is… How much time? There’s no set time. As we are are each different so is the time it will take to heal. I recovered ( as in was able to move forward) in ten months. I’ve never been pregnant but those were the longest ten months of my life but crucial.
For you, it might not be ten months. I’ve seen people recover in 6 or 13 even 18 months. It doesn’t matter. What matters is what you do with that time.
I’m gonna be honest, I jerked around when I got home. I was in a whirlpool that said that I’ll never be free. I spent months thinking my life was over. Because for a moment… It was. As a more stubborn girl my number was ten. But it was the time I NEEDED.
You must be patient with yourself. There where come a time where you arise in the morning with a smile. There will become a time where people will look at you and tell you “You seem really happy. I’m glad.” There will be a time where you look at yourself in the mirror and realize that you love what you see. That God loves you and cherished you.
How would I know?
Because it happened to me. And tons before and after me.
I trust God and I know that he needed me to come home for his reason. I healed in his time.
What do you do now?
Well, I live. I spend my life trying to build my life in the way that God intended for me. I’ll be honest, there are hard days but things do get better.
Understand that in God’s time you will be healed.
Trust. Love. Live.
T A K E H E A R T .